I owe her an exploit, one that befits her standing guard at the gates of my aching heart.
I admit, I was afraid to love. Not just to love, but to love her. For she was a stunning mystery. She carried things deep inside her that no one has yet to understand, and I, I was afraid to fail like the others. She was the ocean and I was just a boy who loved the waves but was completely terrified to swim.
I would send roses, stars to my beloved
and bar no lilies from her feet.
Oh, I would send thrushes and martins skyward.
Hers alone would I be; how sure of love
we, who see only one another;
such blindness like a wind-swept sea, becalmed
becomes a kindness soon.
The ships sail homeward seeking port.
Love, unskilled but true, moves onward,
lost in the wake of arms and kisses,
then awakening at last, sees itself.
Storms and seas and kisses run aground
only love that’s lost is ever found.
I think I’m a victim of my mistakes. I think we all are prone to mistakes but not many people out there know how to accept imperfections but nothing and no one is perfect so if you keep looking for flawless attributes than you will look for the rest of your life and die alone. I’m lucky to have my love. I wonder about other people sometimes…if you are not only prone to mistakes but you are unable to learn from them and move on from them, for instance, “once a cheater always a cheater”.
I think if you’ve cheated 3 times, you have it in you to cheat again and again vs someone who’s done it once, maybe even twice over a span of time. I feel sorry for the people who fall victim to other people’s bad habits. If the offender isn’t smart enough to change then I’d hope the offended is smart enough to walk away. Maybe these people who make these kinds of bad decisions are just bad people and not just some sorry sap who doesn’t know the error of their ways. No, I don’t buy it. If this is a repeat and you didn’t get a good reaction from your action then you most certainly know the error of your ways. Wake up people. Do better for yourselves. If you bitch about being alone or talk about how you are trying to change then fucking do something about it. Fix whatever it is that you are doing so that good things will happen for you and good people surround themselves with you. Bad deeds are like shit and corpses. You are only going to attract parasites and decay so if that’s not the route you want to go and the shit you want to attract then man up and change.